Memories in the Movies

Here I am on Good Morning Texas for those who are interested. Click on the picture for the video. It was a fun experience- fast and furious. We are so thankful that we got to go on and share our story! Our favorite part was seeing Lexa on the big screen. I know she is so proud of that! It was exhilarating to see our girl on TV- to share her with so many thousands of people and to spread her cause so that many MORE chidren will benefit.

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You know in movies, when they show someone look at something and then it flashes back to the past and they picture a memory right before their eyes before snapping back to reality? I always thought that was just a clever way to show someone remembering, but ever since Alexa left us, I do that.

I look outside her window and see snow on the ground and her and I sledding down the hill on a piece of cardboard laughing together.

I look at the kitchen table and see her sitting there with all her paint stuff making us a picture to hang on the wall.

I touch a necklace and see her standing at my jewelry box deciding what she wants to wear of mine that day to match her outfit.

The other day at school, I was in the cafeteria monitoring the kids and a little girl walked by me. She was the height Alexa should be, the same age too. She didn't look anything like her, but it made me think of my girl. I thought- that should be Alexa with a backpack on in Kindergarten. And for a while I was lost in a memory of my daughter- going to pick her up from school. She ran up to me with a huge smile on and yelling, "Mommy! I made green choices!" I picked her up and spun her around and told her how proud I was of her. Then I put her down, kneeled down to her level and asked her about her day.

I snapped back to the now and saw a little boy who needed me to open his chocolate milk and off I was again into my day of taking care of kids. I think without my job life would be much harder. I love being around these kids every day and in so many ways being a mother to them all.